Abu Tells All

I love having friends.Seriously,if i can have one fulfilled wish,i would like to wish that all my friends love me equally.But thats not fair,it breaks the whole point of human nature,Nobody's perfect.I still make mistakes.And if i dont realize it,i hope my friends do and be willing to share,a friend's eye is the best mirror.Thats a lot been happening but i guess there's nothing new,jus problems that have trapped into the same circumstances but people don realize it cause they're not there yet.Not physically,but mentally.Im not a thinker,i jus love sharing thoughts with myself.Im not crazy,its just what i love to do.I chat with my mirrors every single time,i talk to myself every single time,i make a talk show at the kitchen everytime i cook and i cud see my neighbours smiling and laughing at me.But who cares,i dont cause a disturbance,i jus wanna enjoy every moment that makes me happy.If u say im crazy and retarded,i dont feel offended,nobody except God knows me like i know myself.So dont mind me.I have a hard time strengthening my social network rite now.Im all stressed up.I don know why.And it really hits me when i am dead worried about that particular friend,and that friend somehow seem to be easy going,eventhough theres a pile of problems that awaits him.Theres nothing wrong with taking things easy,enjoy,enjoy all that small little moments that makes u smile,cause it makes u a little loose away from thos uptight shit that ure going through.Being so tied up in the mess wont do u any good either.But in the mean time,i guess u have to start making necessary moves to counter this problem.Thers no point smiling when u noe ure still gonna end up frowning.I really hate people who are obsessed with image.Get it right,the word is obsessed.I guess everyone wants some image to spice up one's confidence.Im rugged,but image still concerns me.I still want to go for designer stuff,i still wants a lot of cash,and i still hide my Gulung cigarette whenever im rolling the tobacco and a hot chick walks in my opposite direction.But being obsessed with it is really bad.Real Bad.Cause i believe u'll never be grateful with what u have,cause u cant face reality when it changes,u'll be lost in the world of adaptibility.I have a friend,he comes from a well-off family,God Bless.He's a great guy to hang out with,someone i treasure a lot.He's my carbon copy of my Rugged dictionary.He delivers meaning to my life.He's the best.But he got this problem.He have this ego thats really killing every bit of himself.His family encountered several financial problems,and so it actually affect their household...Its not something thats scarce,this thing happens by nature,well maybe not that cliche.But then again,it brings a lot of benefits physologically.Treat it like a challenge.It helps u to be more rational and stronger as a person.It will test your capability to handle difficult issues and your adaptibilty will take centrestage where you we will learn to do things the hard way cause the present is not like the past.So why the hell do u still care about that image,why the hell do u want to talk about your wealthy past when it wont do any good in the present,whats the value of your history in this present state?,will reality change when u keep complaining about the easy life that u used to have before?...yeah reality can change....but its us humans that can shape it...no point complaining,start moving.Why cant u just learn to live to the fact that now times are hard.U cant just pursue your lifestyle the way u were before,its not gonna help,instead it will post more burden to you.And yeah,its really starting to show. Cause you prioritise your WANTS rather than your NEEDS.How the fuck will u be able to fulfil those needs when u care more about your WANTS.Real friends dont recognise you for your money,car or your fame.They recognise you for your character.We can bring a horse to a river,but we cant force him to drink.How the hell are we able to help u if u are able to help yourself.We can sacrifice our time and and if we have,money,jus to reduce your burden,but at least try to throw us a bone by being more realistic and determined.We win together,we lose together.Thats the ultimate.We dont expect anything from you,cause what we want is already within your own will.I dont want your ego to put you in a standstill.Cause whatever it is,youre still my friend.I really appreciate you and i hope u understand.Abu Rugged and Outs.