Abu Tells All

I love having friends.Seriously,if i can have one fulfilled wish,i would like to wish that all my friends love me equally.But thats not fair,it breaks the whole point of human nature,Nobody's perfect.I still make mistakes.And if i dont realize it,i hope my friends do and be willing to share,a friend's eye is the best mirror.Thats a lot been happening but i guess there's nothing new,jus problems that have trapped into the same circumstances but people don realize it cause they're not there yet.Not physically,but mentally.Im not a thinker,i jus love sharing thoughts with myself.Im not crazy,its just what i love to do.I chat with my mirrors every single time,i talk to myself every single time,i make a talk show at the kitchen everytime i cook and i cud see my neighbours smiling and laughing at me.But who cares,i dont cause a disturbance,i jus wanna enjoy every moment that makes me happy.If u say im crazy and retarded,i dont feel offended,nobody except God knows me like i know myself.So dont mind me.I have a hard time strengthening my social network rite now.Im all stressed up.I don know why.And it really hits me when i am dead worried about that particular friend,and that friend somehow seem to be easy going,eventhough theres a pile of problems that awaits him.Theres nothing wrong with taking things easy,enjoy,enjoy all that small little moments that makes u smile,cause it makes u a little loose away from thos uptight shit that ure going through.Being so tied up in the mess wont do u any good either.But in the mean time,i guess u have to start making necessary moves to counter this problem.Thers no point smiling when u noe ure still gonna end up frowning.I really hate people who are obsessed with image.Get it right,the word is obsessed.I guess everyone wants some image to spice up one's confidence.Im rugged,but image still concerns me.I still want to go for designer stuff,i still wants a lot of cash,and i still hide my Gulung cigarette whenever im rolling the tobacco and a hot chick walks in my opposite direction.But being obsessed with it is really bad.Real Bad.Cause i believe u'll never be grateful with what u have,cause u cant face reality when it changes,u'll be lost in the world of adaptibility.I have a friend,he comes from a well-off family,God Bless.He's a great guy to hang out with,someone i treasure a lot.He's my carbon copy of my Rugged dictionary.He delivers meaning to my life.He's the best.But he got this problem.He have this ego thats really killing every bit of himself.His family encountered several financial problems,and so it actually affect their household...Its not something thats scarce,this thing happens by nature,well maybe not that cliche.But then again,it brings a lot of benefits physologically.Treat it like a challenge.It helps u to be more rational and stronger as a person.It will test your capability to handle difficult issues and your adaptibilty will take centrestage where you we will learn to do things the hard way cause the present is not like the past.So why the hell do u still care about that image,why the hell do u want to talk about your wealthy past when it wont do any good in the present,whats the value of your history in this present state?,will reality change when u keep complaining about the easy life that u used to have before?...yeah reality can change....but its us humans that can shape it...no point complaining,start moving.Why cant u just learn to live to the fact that now times are hard.U cant just pursue your lifestyle the way u were before,its not gonna help,instead it will post more burden to you.And yeah,its really starting to show. Cause you prioritise your WANTS rather than your NEEDS.How the fuck will u be able to fulfil those needs when u care more about your WANTS.Real friends dont recognise you for your money,car or your fame.They recognise you for your character.We can bring a horse to a river,but we cant force him to drink.How the hell are we able to help u if u are able to help yourself.We can sacrifice our time and and if we have,money,jus to reduce your burden,but at least try to throw us a bone by being more realistic and determined.We win together,we lose together.Thats the ultimate.We dont expect anything from you,cause what we want is already within your own will.I dont want your ego to put you in a standstill.Cause whatever it is,youre still my friend.I really appreciate you and i hope u understand.Abu Rugged and Outs.

Time Jus Love to Fly

Hidopes.Aite.Its been a memorable 16 weeks in the first Semester 2nd year. Im grateful that im satisfied with what i have.I cudnt ask for more.The holidays have started and i can sense the Mendakness already.Hahaha.Jus like to holla to my poly peeps for all that we have done and im sure its not gonna end here.Im jus too lazy to have a new class next Semester and befriend new freaks.Haha.The circle jus kept getting bigger.Socials.Ok dude....so below is jus some random pictures of my fellow school mates that delivers nothing but great memories.Hidopes.My eyes asking fer bed.Can't you wait!!??Hahha.Abu Rugged and Outs.

Dig.This.Poly.Peeps. Feel Me

Huda.Simply Dope.God bless You.

Fine 50 bucks.

Left: Republic Poly's Dance Nite.Club Shit.Off the Hook.Hidopes.

Left: Hottest Chic in Class.Haha.Hidopes.

Rugged.Thats the word.Blimey.Thats the person.Dude,its been 16 weeks since i freaking know this person and hope 16 weeks is all it takes for us to be peeps rite till the end.We have had our times,both on a smooth plane and yet on friction.But i will go the distance,cos dude,this freak knows me to bits,inside and out.I jus ponder about it at times myself.I never really express myself as much in my 19 years of living till the day this jackass came into picture.Haha.Youre dope.And im overwhelmed about this reality and head over heels God have made it happen.Dude,this guy is like my Diary.He have this priceless quality that really demands more of what i am.Listening.Dude,that enables me to be more outspoken and jus release the things that i have kept to myself all this while.Dude,he have done his part,more that what i have expected from him.Hes 18.Thats one thing i hate.Hahah.Its nothing personal,but its jus that it would be more convenientfor me if hes much older.Anyways,like what i said,i donno dude,he really satisfy me.Really.And i hope that what ive shared with him have helped him a lot in many ways.Regardless of what i have said.I know he have learnt a lot too.Hidopes.And i jus cant see how its like if we have issues,and suddenly became rivals.WAHAHHA.Dude,the times we talk,thetimes we joke,the times we smoke,the times we're broke...HAHA.I jus hope it wont happen.Like i told him,if it really surface,i will laugh till i cry.Aite dude,may God sustain our friendship.Its all in His hands,all we can do is Believe and be Willing.God bless you Blimey.Hidopes.

Points of Authority

Hey whats up peeps.Heres the thing.I donno whats wrong with me.Simply,Just me.Yeah at first thought,it may sound ‘I make a punitive mistake that really withdraws a
A huge sense of regret’….but then again..its really happening only excluding that statement.It’s a totally different issue as a whole.Im jus worried about myself.Sometimes
I jus find myself staring at my I.C and telling….okay this is me…this is how I look…that’s my name…and yeah…further on…usually taking 2-3 minutes…haha.Okay
So basically that’s the general and natural me.But what about the internal me,my inner self, mentally,physchologically,emotionally me.Boleh?...well jus for specific reasons.
Alrite so.I donno.Don ask me.Ok I noe.U don care.U don wanna Noe.I noe.But u still need to Noe.This is my Blog.So im gonna call the shots.Hahaa.Ok.So yeah,sometimes
I jus share with my peeps how I wud want to be in their shoes,and jus observe how Abu works.Im jus curious to see the actual me.How I walk,how I talk,how I joke,how I smoke,
And yeah.Its not that I don appreciate me.Woah.Tats really bad.We are who we are.Every single one of us is unique in our own way.And that special ability that God have given
Us would not surface if we are ignorant and not willing to learn and discover what we actualli have.Good things comes in small packages.And that small package might just
Make a big turning point in ur life.Nice.Everyone have their own abilities and diabilities,be it both mentally and physically.Its up to one to accept and respect who they are
As a person.If u don accept the diabilties that u have,then u have no reason to live.If u are boastful of your abilities,you will soon be deceived.Okay.
So back to the’I donno me’ part.So yeah..im jus feel insecure about myself. .Thres jus something inside me that wont give in.Its like a disease dude.Thres like
Split personalities of the inner version.I donno dude.Its jus does nothing to me but further questioning.Take for example,whenenver I talk to a special someone…it may not
Spontaneously have effect,but then again it triggers my thoughts.Is that what I really wanna say?Is there something that’s bothering me that prevents me from saying what I wanna
Say?..yeah that kinda crap..so the thing is..I wud forever be wondering.Is it Me?…..but the factual shit is…It is of course me.then hu else cud have say it. Im not possesed dude.
Haha.Yeah.so like I said..its jus a different part of me that is doubtful and another part of me that is true.Dude.....I think even the physciatrist
Wud have quit his job after hearing me.Haha.But nevertheless,im still positive these two parts of me would still produced the Abu that you have today.Hope its been great knowing Abu as a fren.He’s a great guy to befriend.Don You think?Hahah.WTF. I love to study people.Thats the whole point of mixing with people I believe...The thing is.....its not
The value of the pleasure and pain that counts,it’s the significant value of lesson and experience that u gain that’s priceless.From what I have derived at from my thoughts
That I have in mind while smoking in my toilet, I believe theres two ways of studying people,one is being a Stalker, and one is understanding People.Both develops negative and positive
Outcomes respectively.Being a Stalker would mean,intruding in other’s party privacy for the sake of self satisfaction often leading to
Foolish measures.Understanding people in contrast aids someone in appreciating the other better for the good of both.This helps in avoiding conflicts within one another
And indeed respecting the rights of others in the form of feelings.Even though he/she is as bad as Satan,they too have emotions.Disrespecting them is being more Satanic.So yeah.I hope what I say is all good.
Aite peeps.My time runs out now.Im gonna moo like a Cow. Moo! Abu Rugged and outs. Hidopes.

"An enemy agrees,a real friend argues" Tina Turner.Boleh?

Hijau(Green)

Hidopes.Blogger usually insert lyrics of songs into their entry posts assumably because they have nothing much to chat about.And with the fact that these songs somehow reflects how they feel.So im jus gonna do jus that.Although i feel very 'everbody',i jus wanna hook you up with the song i really find off the heats. And my mum second that.So jus try to feel the lyrics.I wanna sing this song to the chics.Haha.I jus love the way the song kicks.Hidopes.Hit me if u dig me.

Bumi yang tiada rimba
Seumpama hamba
Dia dicemar manusia
Yang jahil ketawa

Bumi yang tiada udara
Bagai tiada nyawa
Pasti hilang suatu hari
Tanpa disedari

Bumi tanpa lautan
Akan kehausan
Pasti lambat laun hilang
Duniaku yang malang

Dewasa ini kita saling merayakan
Kejayaan yang akhirnya membinasakan
Apalah gunanya kematangan fikiran
Bila di jiwa kita masih lagi muda
Dan mentah
Ku lihat hijau
Hidopes.

Okay.Back To things I love.The things I wanna do.Hopes to pursue.Life is beautiful.

1)Be a Radio DJ----haha...GYEAH!.Whenever i heard radio shows on air,i jus love to ponder how i cud make it better.For me,its jus so ME,well from what i believe.From what i noe,its not as rugged as it seems,but imagine it,if its really something that ure really IN into and its jus something that u have talent in,despite the demands from the industry,u can really nail it dude,u don have to work a day in ur life,u want some fries?
Verdict--I jus love reaching to people,the only thing that matters is how well people appreciate me.Im positive they will.So its just between my dreams and Reality,if u noe what i mean.Hidopes.

2)Be a Lyricist---Say What!...haha.Dude.Ive been loving poetry since i hung a water bottle round my neck.I jus cant imagine the world without ryhmes,the wordy world out to be dull.I first started to write Malay Rhymes,cos dude,its the most Rugged language in the world,and the most dope part of it,its the presence of IMBUHAN,take for example the word Cabaran,aite,so lets find his peeps,hhmmm....Dugaan,Halangan,Rintangan,Tauladan,Pelajaran,Kedukaan,Gelombang,Khayalan,Perasaan,Kenangan,Pegangan,Ketabahan,and and banyak lagi brother,there's more that u can ever imagine,but these are works you can make relations with,let me hook u guys up real quick,so listen,

Sesungguhnya kehidupan diliputi pelbagai cabaran dan rintangan,
Seandai lautan luas yang penuh dengan gelombang,
Namun janganlah kite berduka atas dugaan yang minimpa,
Anggaplah ia satu dugaan yang diutuskan oleh yang Maha Kuasa,

Kite umat Islam yang erat kepada Pegangan,
Di sebalik sesuatu munculah sesuatu tauladan,
Janganlah kite dipengaruh dengan arus Perasaan,
Selagi kite dibawa khayalan,selagi itu Syaitan dayung sampan, Aiiiiii!

Yeah dude.From then on,i started composing music of my own,jus that its a more introverted phenomenon.It jus fills my time,and it aint crime,catch da RHYME?...haha.So afterwards,i was on a roll,i tried doing Reggae,Slow Rock,Alternative and yeah finally Hip Hop,Holla at Burn!...u like bird's nest fern?..haha.aite.So this is something fer my poly peeps,lean back and feel me.

So i had a friend who goes by the name of Ashburn,
Mess with him once,dude ure gonna go deep in the run,
his lyrics are sharp,its gonna make yours blunt,
his words are the bullets,dude,his mouth is the Gun,

See Blimey loves to pop,no doubts he's on Top,
Once he put his grooves on,aint nobody gotta shot,
He's a poppin masterpiece,not any kid from the block,
he's like an electric eel,you gonna get shocked till u drop,

See Huda,i don even noe how we can end up as friends,
But one thing is for sure,im gonna give you One hundred percent,
I don wanna flatter you,dude,im jus being frank,
And i hope our friendship gonna be real tight till the End,

See i don even know why u peeps are questioning me,
my lines are dope to the highest degree,
I'm not born a rapper,dude,i'm not Muhammad Ali,
But i sure float like a butterfly,i sting like a Bee,
Haha.Okay i get carried away sometimes.ahha.Hidopes.

Verdict:So modestly,i don really regard it as my passion,but if it cud happen,it will be something that i wud wish i cud yearn,i love the sun.wtf.Hidopes.

Aite,i have to do my team's presentation now.Holla soon.Abu Rugged and Outs.Hidopes.